Bye

Bigger wish, doesn't mean greedy..perhaps
I wish I would walk out from illness.

God bless me.

Just pray for breathing ... for another decades.

Everyone, may you have a blessing new year.

God bless you &
Good luck.


xoxo Ms Leona

Stop!

Here comes the all time favorite again! December  :D
But Santa is not coming to town, it's freaking hot here........ lol

Just having a wonderful anniversary weekend with my fiance.
Time really flies!
Looking forward this year gift exchange..! hohoho ..money all the way

Be true, I think I'm getting better these few weeks...
Honesty, I guess. It is healing me.
At least, I didn't think about suicide in the past two weeks.
A great step too!

Huge decisions made this year, quite a hard year to me.
Am glad that it ends smoothly, although I want it be 'happily ever after'.
It's fine, just give another try next year!

Blindness ended.
This is considered a very impressed improvement to me. :D
Just an advice, stop playing hide and seek with you own. Should really plan & think well, troubles met then solve it. I believe that there's no such as mission impossible, only time will do.

Private life, this part count as failure.  lol
Ain't good in communication, but it's not an excuse too.
Am trying to learn it in better way..... work in progress!
Losing trust in people, even friend.
It's cruel when you found out someone really means a lot to you done bad things or spreading rumors behind you....it is HURT. Plus, there was too many times & experiences on this kind of things............... Like I did find out one of my best mate breaking my trust due to what my best mate done years ago. Even it was years ago, you would still mad and sad about it! But, funny thing is.....that one act like nothing happened. Oh please.... Oscar will do!

Forgiveness shall be given all the time?
Never think of it.
It takes a lot of time, I ain't saint but facing sins. We all the same.
I would forgive you someday, from the bottom of my heart.

Just sharing what I learnt.
Do not target or expect  yourself too high, beyond your capability. You would fell badly....
I met people. They always speak louder than actions, targets changed monthly, nothing done at the end.
Do not underestimate anyone, sometime he/she might just need a cover to be a greater person.

Have a nice day.

First Step

I cut my hair.

I found that I've lost myself.

I know I've been sick for awhile.

I'm suffering depression.

I finally admit it.

I'm willing to seek for help.

I gonna fight it.

I will do everything to stay alive.

I know that would be a long way to go, and it would be tough.

I know people would cry for me, even just a few.

I will keep breathing and fighting with the illness.

I shall keep breathing for my loved ones.

I would be the mother of your kids, your beloved wife, die before you.

I would try the best to stop hurting myself, even just a minute, I'd still fight with it.

You are my strength, please stay by my side.

I would try.

I would save my last breath for you.