Bigger wish, doesn't mean greedy..perhaps
I wish I would walk out from illness.
God bless me.
Just pray for breathing ... for another decades.
Everyone, may you have a blessing new year.
God bless you &
Good luck.
xoxo Ms Leona
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Stop!
Here comes the all time favorite again! December :D
But Santa is not coming to town, it's freaking hot here........ lol
Just having a wonderful anniversary weekend with my fiance.
Time really flies!
Looking forward this year gift exchange..! hohoho ..money all the way
Be true, I think I'm getting better these few weeks...
Honesty, I guess. It is healing me.
At least, I didn't think about suicide in the past two weeks.
A great step too!
Huge decisions made this year, quite a hard year to me.
Am glad that it ends smoothly, although I want it be 'happily ever after'.
It's fine, just give another try next year!
Blindness ended.
This is considered a very impressed improvement to me. :D
Just an advice, stop playing hide and seek with you own. Should really plan & think well, troubles met then solve it. I believe that there's no such as mission impossible, only time will do.
Private life, this part count as failure. lol
Ain't good in communication, but it's not an excuse too.
Am trying to learn it in better way..... work in progress!
Losing trust in people, even friend.
It's cruel when you found out someone really means a lot to you done bad things or spreading rumors behind you....it is HURT. Plus, there was too many times & experiences on this kind of things............... Like I did find out one of my best mate breaking my trust due to what my best mate done years ago. Even it was years ago, you would still mad and sad about it! But, funny thing is.....that one act like nothing happened. Oh please.... Oscar will do!
Forgiveness shall be given all the time?
Never think of it.
It takes a lot of time, I ain't saint but facing sins. We all the same.
I would forgive you someday, from the bottom of my heart.
Just sharing what I learnt.
Do not target or expect yourself too high, beyond your capability. You would fell badly....
I met people. They always speak louder than actions, targets changed monthly, nothing done at the end.
Do not underestimate anyone, sometime he/she might just need a cover to be a greater person.
Have a nice day.
But Santa is not coming to town, it's freaking hot here........ lol
Just having a wonderful anniversary weekend with my fiance.
Time really flies!
Looking forward this year gift exchange..! hohoho ..money all the way
Be true, I think I'm getting better these few weeks...
Honesty, I guess. It is healing me.
At least, I didn't think about suicide in the past two weeks.
A great step too!
Huge decisions made this year, quite a hard year to me.
Am glad that it ends smoothly, although I want it be 'happily ever after'.
It's fine, just give another try next year!
Blindness ended.
This is considered a very impressed improvement to me. :D
Just an advice, stop playing hide and seek with you own. Should really plan & think well, troubles met then solve it. I believe that there's no such as mission impossible, only time will do.
Private life, this part count as failure. lol
Ain't good in communication, but it's not an excuse too.
Am trying to learn it in better way..... work in progress!
Losing trust in people, even friend.
It's cruel when you found out someone really means a lot to you done bad things or spreading rumors behind you....it is HURT. Plus, there was too many times & experiences on this kind of things............... Like I did find out one of my best mate breaking my trust due to what my best mate done years ago. Even it was years ago, you would still mad and sad about it! But, funny thing is.....that one act like nothing happened. Oh please.... Oscar will do!
Forgiveness shall be given all the time?
Never think of it.
It takes a lot of time, I ain't saint but facing sins. We all the same.
I would forgive you someday, from the bottom of my heart.
Just sharing what I learnt.
Do not target or expect yourself too high, beyond your capability. You would fell badly....
I met people. They always speak louder than actions, targets changed monthly, nothing done at the end.
Do not underestimate anyone, sometime he/she might just need a cover to be a greater person.
Have a nice day.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
First Step
I cut my hair.
I found that I've lost myself.
I know I've been sick for awhile.
I'm suffering depression.
I finally admit it.
I'm willing to seek for help.
I gonna fight it.
I will do everything to stay alive.
I know that would be a long way to go, and it would be tough.
I know people would cry for me, even just a few.
I will keep breathing and fighting with the illness.
I shall keep breathing for my loved ones.
I would be the mother of your kids, your beloved wife, die before you.
I would try the best to stop hurting myself, even just a minute, I'd still fight with it.
You are my strength, please stay by my side.
I would try.
I would save my last breath for you.
I found that I've lost myself.
I know I've been sick for awhile.
I'm suffering depression.
I finally admit it.
I'm willing to seek for help.
I gonna fight it.
I will do everything to stay alive.
I know that would be a long way to go, and it would be tough.
I know people would cry for me, even just a few.
I will keep breathing and fighting with the illness.
I shall keep breathing for my loved ones.
I would be the mother of your kids, your beloved wife, die before you.
I would try the best to stop hurting myself, even just a minute, I'd still fight with it.
You are my strength, please stay by my side.
I would try.
I would save my last breath for you.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Silence remains
Everyday waking up at the same time, doing the same.
Days passed.
The habit never end.
Driving the same car for years.
Passing by the same view for years.
Changes made.
The car wasn't that good like the first day, the view wasn't that fair like the previous.
Wearing the same clothes to work.
Facing the same desktop and desk.
Doing paperwork daily.
Difference, we're making it.
Trying to make ourselves comfortable in every place.
I think I should be pleased.
I didn't force to do the habit but created myself.
' Sometimes when I'm alone
I pretend that I'm a queen
it almost believable ' --- Invisible by Skylar Grey
yea, she is right.
At least, be the queen of yourself.
Even just one day.
We're still breathing.
Days passed.
The habit never end.
Driving the same car for years.
Passing by the same view for years.
Changes made.
The car wasn't that good like the first day, the view wasn't that fair like the previous.
Wearing the same clothes to work.
Facing the same desktop and desk.
Doing paperwork daily.
Difference, we're making it.
Trying to make ourselves comfortable in every place.
I think I should be pleased.
I didn't force to do the habit but created myself.
' Sometimes when I'm alone
I pretend that I'm a queen
it almost believable ' --- Invisible by Skylar Grey
yea, she is right.
At least, be the queen of yourself.
Even just one day.
We're still breathing.
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| I luv him. |
Friday, May 27, 2011
Lovely June is coming !
I'm not sure whether you really understand when I say " I'm really busy right now, sorry! ".
Everyone works differently just to get paid and live our life.
And, sorry to say that not everyone lives like you do.
We earn every coins or notes by how hard we do, not like you just ask from someone else.
I have tried my best to show my respect on you, so please do not try my limit.
oh yea, it's truth cause not everyone could be professional prostitute.
That's why I admired you once.
New job, I was wondering how to describe it in the right expression.
Hmmm, I think it's all about challenge.
New positon and task I have never done before, quite a nice learning chance for me to update myself.
Anyway, just enjoy the life cause it always full of unexpected surprises.
Just like how I met my Fiance.
That was cool and unbelievable !
Time really flies.
It's nearly June now.
Half year gone, what have you done in last six months ?
Perhaps all my dear friends doing perfectly well without regrets.
My sister gonna marry in three months later.
oh, just like I said " Life is full of surprise " .
You will never know who will you meet in the next second and who you will end up with.
This year really a freaking busy year!
Sorry for those end up badly.
No one means to be hurt.
I promised my dearest dinner together this month, but why it seems hard to make it.
oh no, I could make it easily months before but super hard to make it months later.
24 hours always not enough for me.
super sorry! but you're always on my mind.
and my luv, blair too!
Working super hard to make money !
A wedding without annoying tradisional chinese dinner, oh I love it !
It only seems perfect when I with you, my babe.
You're romantic right in your way.
It's time to prepare for my study life.
Try to catch up what I have missed in my last two years.
It's never late to learn just afraid that you're not willing to learn.
My babe meets challenges too.
But no matter how hard will it be, I promise I'll stay by your side.
Thanks to you, I can imagine the rest of my days with you, and it will be great and perfect.
Everyone works differently just to get paid and live our life.
And, sorry to say that not everyone lives like you do.
We earn every coins or notes by how hard we do, not like you just ask from someone else.
I have tried my best to show my respect on you, so please do not try my limit.
oh yea, it's truth cause not everyone could be professional prostitute.
That's why I admired you once.
New job, I was wondering how to describe it in the right expression.
Hmmm, I think it's all about challenge.
New positon and task I have never done before, quite a nice learning chance for me to update myself.
Anyway, just enjoy the life cause it always full of unexpected surprises.
Just like how I met my Fiance.
That was cool and unbelievable !
Time really flies.
It's nearly June now.
Half year gone, what have you done in last six months ?
Perhaps all my dear friends doing perfectly well without regrets.
My sister gonna marry in three months later.
oh, just like I said " Life is full of surprise " .
You will never know who will you meet in the next second and who you will end up with.
This year really a freaking busy year!
Sorry for those end up badly.
No one means to be hurt.
I promised my dearest dinner together this month, but why it seems hard to make it.
oh no, I could make it easily months before but super hard to make it months later.
24 hours always not enough for me.
super sorry! but you're always on my mind.
and my luv, blair too!
Working super hard to make money !
A wedding without annoying tradisional chinese dinner, oh I love it !
It only seems perfect when I with you, my babe.
You're romantic right in your way.
It's time to prepare for my study life.
Try to catch up what I have missed in my last two years.
It's never late to learn just afraid that you're not willing to learn.
My babe meets challenges too.
But no matter how hard will it be, I promise I'll stay by your side.
Thanks to you, I can imagine the rest of my days with you, and it will be great and perfect.
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| Will our gal look just like me? xD |
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
May update.
Alright, I supposed to work in my tiny office and sit on my broken chair and facing with my messy table.
But Im home now.
WHY?
Im sick, pretty much can say so.
If my babe found out that I still bloggin rite now, then I would be dead.
But Im home now.
WHY?
Im sick, pretty much can say so.
If my babe found out that I still bloggin rite now, then I would be dead.
It's May now, hello May days.
wondering why the weather turning so damn hot... I think our great mother earth is getting sick badly and worse.
still a lot of jobs not get done yet. making me headache ='(
two more years, 11th December 2013
expecting and waiting for it badly! WHY WHY WHY
cause that will be my wedding day
yea Im getting married soon !
okay, it's time to bed.
or I might get killed before I get married.
Bye and have a good day.
wondering why the weather turning so damn hot... I think our great mother earth is getting sick badly and worse.
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| don't get shock! my storage! xD |
still a lot of jobs not get done yet. making me headache ='(
two more years, 11th December 2013
expecting and waiting for it badly! WHY WHY WHY
cause that will be my wedding day
yea Im getting married soon !
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| this is Mr Bear |
okay, it's time to bed.
or I might get killed before I get married.
Bye and have a good day.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Just Another YEAR
Oh
it's brand new April now!
lovely April days
shopping needed! ='(
can I ?
started new job few days ago
hmmm..... nothing special but it's totally different if compare with my last job
and most important, no more LADY BOSS !!!
screw you!
hunting for shoes .... =(
nice design and fit my size!
fiance
will u marry me? lol
gonna ask u every single day from now! xD
hunting for bags too!
planning for a short vacation with Mr Spring ...
but when when when
when can we go and looking for fun? ='(
new job seems like hard to clear my holiday ya... too bad
' It may be a time of new beginnings, a time of growth, a time of reaping the harvest of the hard work, or a time of rest. Trust this beautiful order. Everything in its time. ' ---- Message from God
arghh.. miss my friends ='(
dearest and luv
wanna date u two, can I? xD
I know being depressed wouldn't help or change anything
but sometimes u just hard to fight with it... ...
another year passed, next year perhaps?
always talk to yourself like this, kinda cheer yourself up...
but deep down of u already knew something that might never change
u just refuse to accept and face it
I am not happy. but seems like perfect... crazy, isn't it?
I know being depressed wouldn't help or change anything
but sometimes u just hard to fight with it... ...
another year passed, next year perhaps?
always talk to yourself like this, kinda cheer yourself up...
but deep down of u already knew something that might never change
u just refuse to accept and face it
I am not happy. but seems like perfect... crazy, isn't it?
Thursday, March 10, 2011
March with love !!! ♥
arghhhh
It's March now ...Good day!
resigned from the company, gonna miss the days here!
resigned from the company, gonna miss the days here!
spending my last one year with u guys, it's worthy =D
I just discharged from hospital daysss ago.
what happened this time?
Doctor told me it should be lung infection then it was my first admission to hospital this year.
poor me =X
and the best part was ...hmm, my dear was there with me
I was touched deeply.
He always seems dumb but I just couldn't live without him from now and the rest of my life.
I know he is the right one for me, clearly and simple.
Will you marry me? I guess I already knew the answer.
Thanks God.
Seriously thinkin bout college life recently... super miss school days ='(
can I afford it? ...sigh
seeing people around me back to school life... kinda jealous! gosh
but I really not doin this for the certificate or whatever people doin this for, Im doin for myself and it's really bout learning.
sometimes, life is so unfair.
suddenly remember my old bloggin wretch --> www.wretch.cc/blog/dIaOdIaO247
still working? lol
it's gettin late now..
time to bed !
see you guys ! ♥
I just discharged from hospital daysss ago.
what happened this time?
Doctor told me it should be lung infection then it was my first admission to hospital this year.
poor me =X
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| my poor hand ='( |
and the best part was ...hmm, my dear was there with me
I was touched deeply.
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| DUMB Look No.1 |
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| babe are u try to be SEXY ? lol xD |
He always seems dumb but I just couldn't live without him from now and the rest of my life.
I know he is the right one for me, clearly and simple.
Will you marry me? I guess I already knew the answer.
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| every moment with u was treasure ♥ |
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| Enjoy every moment with u ♥ |
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| I luv u just the way u are ♥ |
Thanks God.
Seriously thinkin bout college life recently... super miss school days ='(
can I afford it? ...sigh
seeing people around me back to school life... kinda jealous! gosh
but I really not doin this for the certificate or whatever people doin this for, Im doin for myself and it's really bout learning.
sometimes, life is so unfair.
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| fuck the UNFAIR! xD |
suddenly remember my old bloggin wretch --> www.wretch.cc/blog/dIaOdIaO247
still working? lol
it's gettin late now..
time to bed !
see you guys ! ♥
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| He is my buddy! Happy 20th Bday ♥ |
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Happy Chinese New Year still ♥
Good day guys !
back to work again, holidays ended ='(
really miss my vacation !!!
gonna plan another vacation without any interruption again !
listed in my TO-DO LIST from now xD
I found this website accidentally !
really useful for guys who treated himself/herself as a Backpacker in Malaysia !
Journey Malayisia ♥ Fascinating !!!
hope it will help u on planning trip !
and also the famous Tripadvisor ♥ helps a lot !
try Lonely Planet as usual but sometimes better don't follow all the tips n advices or it could be a costly trip !
as a backpacker, the best way to enjoy your journey is actually living there n learn from the nature just like Alexander Supertramp,Chris McCandless.
bring along a couple of books and a sketchbook with you, try to do things you have never done before.
why? coz you have plenty of time !
enjoy the trip without rushing is the key of having fun !
back to recent-life update now
wish me luck on the coming interview !
really need a change in my life now
alreadys wasted my days, so much ! ouchhh =X
need to stabilise the basic so the day will be brighter !
always say goodbye to yesterday
learning from what already happened but never follow back the old step
future always unpredictable so just keep our mind wiser
most of the time we might hardly see n learn our mistake, our ego n pride blind us
words from others always seems mean n unpleasant
but it's real n you really gotta accept it or face it
people just being honest with u
Im still learning to deal with the truth =)
time to deal with figures !
Happy Weekends ! ♥
back to work again, holidays ended ='(
really miss my vacation !!!
gonna plan another vacation without any interruption again !
listed in my TO-DO LIST from now xD
I found this website accidentally !
really useful for guys who treated himself/herself as a Backpacker in Malaysia !
Journey Malayisia ♥ Fascinating !!!
hope it will help u on planning trip !
and also the famous Tripadvisor ♥ helps a lot !
try Lonely Planet as usual but sometimes better don't follow all the tips n advices or it could be a costly trip !
as a backpacker, the best way to enjoy your journey is actually living there n learn from the nature just like Alexander Supertramp,Chris McCandless.
bring along a couple of books and a sketchbook with you, try to do things you have never done before.
why? coz you have plenty of time !
enjoy the trip without rushing is the key of having fun !
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| ♥ Beer Beauty Beach = BEST in world |
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| that was freakin cool ! lol |
back to recent-life update now
wish me luck on the coming interview !
really need a change in my life now
alreadys wasted my days, so much ! ouchhh =X
need to stabilise the basic so the day will be brighter !
always say goodbye to yesterday
learning from what already happened but never follow back the old step
future always unpredictable so just keep our mind wiser
most of the time we might hardly see n learn our mistake, our ego n pride blind us
words from others always seems mean n unpleasant
but it's real n you really gotta accept it or face it
people just being honest with u
Im still learning to deal with the truth =)
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| totally a mess ! lol |
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| the best in town ! |
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| where is the toilet?? lol |
time to deal with figures !
Happy Weekends ! ♥
Thursday, February 10, 2011
sway to the rhythm of LOVE ♥
Hello Feb ! =D
Happy Chinese New Year to all bloggers !!!
Im having a sick new year ='(
No much celebrations sigh
But still having loads of FUN with Family ! luv ya ♥
I love my Family very much!
perhaps u will never knew the feeling that growing up in a family like us
so u wouldn know how much we all love bout our Mom ♥
If there is a superwoman out there, it definitely would be my Mom, the only one.
The best part of Chinese New Year.
Not angbao!
it will be the time, the time i can spend with family then dont even think bout paperwork! hahaha
wish all the people around me,
have a prosperous new year! all the best n good luck ♥
I think Im lucky.
lucky to be alive n living with beloved family, friends n lover.
try to be grateful from now.
thanks God, Im still breathing today.
my sis is gettin married this year.
hope she really knows what she wants n hope he could be the right one.
we all will always be here for u.
once we are born to be sisters, then we will be sisters till the end. ♥
We always lookin for excuses to cover ourselves. Bad habit !
from now, I gonna throw away all the bad.
Nothing cant be solved, as long as u never give up on it, no matter how long it takes.
i think it's time to make a big real change !
another new target of year 2011 ♥
Get my mom a Lawyer ! hahaha
n buy my mom n babe sis a new sweet house ♥
keep burning my energy ! n youth !!
I believe I can ♥
Glad that u found me.
thanks God.
He would be the last one of my life.
Remember to grab the best in front of u.
xxxxx Ms Leona
p.s. Have fun guys !
Happy Chinese New Year to all bloggers !!!
Im having a sick new year ='(
No much celebrations sigh
But still having loads of FUN with Family ! luv ya ♥
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| ♥ starbucks dinner with Mom n sisters ♥ |
perhaps u will never knew the feeling that growing up in a family like us
so u wouldn know how much we all love bout our Mom ♥
If there is a superwoman out there, it definitely would be my Mom, the only one.
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| ♥ dating with Mom ♥ Hi-Tea |
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| ♥ she hates camera ! hahaha |
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| she still hiding from camera ♥ so cute |
Not angbao!
it will be the time, the time i can spend with family then dont even think bout paperwork! hahaha
wish all the people around me,
have a prosperous new year! all the best n good luck ♥
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| ♥ Hi-Tea with Mom |
I think Im lucky.
lucky to be alive n living with beloved family, friends n lover.
try to be grateful from now.
thanks God, Im still breathing today.
my sis is gettin married this year.
hope she really knows what she wants n hope he could be the right one.
we all will always be here for u.
once we are born to be sisters, then we will be sisters till the end. ♥
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| we are your lovely sisters always ♥ |
We always lookin for excuses to cover ourselves. Bad habit !
from now, I gonna throw away all the bad.
Nothing cant be solved, as long as u never give up on it, no matter how long it takes.
i think it's time to make a big real change !
another new target of year 2011 ♥
Get my mom a Lawyer ! hahaha
n buy my mom n babe sis a new sweet house ♥
keep burning my energy ! n youth !!
I believe I can ♥
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| cute tiny carrots ♥ |
Glad that u found me.
thanks God.
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| ♥ Mr Spring , the only Spring |
Remember to grab the best in front of u.
xxxxx Ms Leona
p.s. Have fun guys !
Friday, January 14, 2011
Welcome January
Dear blogger
It's a brand new day now.
u just have to believe in the goodness n be faithful.
Thanks God.
About this time last year.. I think I was there, the cold highland.
It was lovely and rainy all the time.
The best part was the chocolate bar
u dont have to put it in refrigerator and never worry about melting! funny
now back to the new days Im having here
on the first day of the year '11
I did something that I've never done before
I went to an orphan home which located in town area
I know it was not a big deal
and I wasnt alone... also outing with my dearest on that day
what a lovely new year day I had
shared the joy n fullness with her !!! hahaha xDD
and Im glad that she has changed.
a brand new Tisu comes alive ! no longer EMO !!
We luv Friday ♥
and the cute Filipino waiter ! xDD
one more to tell
Im seeing a cute guy lately ...Mr Spring xD
Already 3:34am Friday
Im waiting for the car then off to company annual dinner ...
freakin tired
Have fun guys !
It's a brand new day now.
u just have to believe in the goodness n be faithful.
Thanks God.
About this time last year.. I think I was there, the cold highland.
It was lovely and rainy all the time.
The best part was the chocolate bar
u dont have to put it in refrigerator and never worry about melting! funny
now back to the new days Im having here
on the first day of the year '11
I did something that I've never done before
I went to an orphan home which located in town area
I know it was not a big deal
and I wasnt alone... also outing with my dearest on that day
what a lovely new year day I had
shared the joy n fullness with her !!! hahaha xDD
and Im glad that she has changed.
a brand new Tisu comes alive ! no longer EMO !!
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| Sohai No.2 |
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| ♥ We love this very much |
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| This was super delicious n yummy ♥ |
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| Finally, Sohai No.1 |
We luv Friday ♥
and the cute Filipino waiter ! xDD
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| Kids shouldn't be forgotten ♥ |
one more to tell
Im seeing a cute guy lately ...Mr Spring xD
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| Lovely X'mas =D |
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| She is freaking cute that's my mom ! |
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| OMG I was thin |
Im waiting for the car then off to company annual dinner ...
freakin tired
Have fun guys !
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